poison and nectar

dear reader, I hope you are well!


The heart shaped land that my feet will stand on in t-minus two months, has, like every land... suffered some serious trials. 
I have to do a research paper on Bosnia-Herzegovina for my Intercordia class, and have chosen the heavy topic of the systematic rape of Bosnian Women during the genocide of the early 90's. I was living on a farm, chasing my older siblings and geese and learning my first words, when all this terror was going on across the ocean. Again, I am well fed and generally joyful while so much unspoken or unseen trials go on around me. 

God bless all those Sisters!!! Holy work indeed. <3
In my research I am exploring the notion that the brutal raping of the Women of Bosnia was in some ways a result of Serbian Folklore, that often glorifies Serbian men as superior beings than their neighbors....

what a dangerous thing it is when we try to exalt ourselves as gods above each other...

pride, selfish vanity, please get away from me.

When I am reading and writing on these horrific events of human memory, I often turn to Mother Teresa's writings to help lighten my heart. I love her piercing, sincere simplicity.

"Smile five times a day at someone you don't really want to smile at at all. Do it for peace."


"I still think that the greatest suffering is being lonely, feeling unloved, just having no one. I have come more and more to realize that being unwanted is the worst disease that any human can ever experience."


"God loves the world through you and through me."


"Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin."

Please give hope in our hearts,

make our smiles infectious,

let our arms be open,

and our embraces ever warm.

Let me see my pride,

Confront me with my selfishness

help me uproot them.

Plant in me seeds of gentleness

generosity

sincerity

honest love.

Please

:)

Thank you so much, all my friends, family and unknown beauties for your support, prayers and generosity. My thanks is with you! You rock. 
Also wanted to express my gratitude for all the outlandishly amazing young Women I am walking the Intercordia journey with! Seriously, you women amaze me. Mad love and respect !!